Monday, October 30, 2006
it was nice to see daylight this morning....
its nice to get up to daylight.
Anway, I did not post here this weekend, but rather in my Dec 98 list. Alyssa bit me on Sat. I really dont want to rehash it right now. Anyway, overall she is just such a handful. She even got Felix mad at her, and that is very hard to do. The kids were at the playground yesterday, as we had beautiful weather. They played in the sandbox and were filthy. I told them to get undressed in the laundry room. As we were coming out of the car I also told Alyssa to grab her shoes. Once in the house, she started to walk to the dining room area where we keep the "shoe farm". Felix told her to go back to the laundry room, but she continued anyway. The ONE time she decides to put shoes where they really belong is the one time she was not suppose to do that and was told otherwise! Meanwhile Jack did as told, but then ran up to the shower while his feet were dirty. YUK reddish sand on my carpet. I was going to carry him.
Jack is just not "street smart". He does as his sister many times. There are woods and a brook in our backyard. the kids went there yesterday. Alyssa was wearing a skort and her imitiation crocs without socks. She went into the brook. JAck was wearing socks and full long jeans. He did the same.! yesterday was just a bad laundry day for me :(
Ok. So last night I decided to do something different. Since we seem to always be on Alyssa's case for all that she does wrong, I told her all the good things about her. This way she doesnt think that all we think about is all the "bad" or should I really say "misdirected" traits that she has. The traits that cause her to be bad, if controlled could be used for good instead of bad. For example, that fact that she is very emotional. If she could control it, she could do very well in theatre. Also, it can be refreshing for someone to let you know how they feel. But she over does it right now.
Today is FElix's bday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY FELIX!
Anway, I did not post here this weekend, but rather in my Dec 98 list. Alyssa bit me on Sat. I really dont want to rehash it right now. Anyway, overall she is just such a handful. She even got Felix mad at her, and that is very hard to do. The kids were at the playground yesterday, as we had beautiful weather. They played in the sandbox and were filthy. I told them to get undressed in the laundry room. As we were coming out of the car I also told Alyssa to grab her shoes. Once in the house, she started to walk to the dining room area where we keep the "shoe farm". Felix told her to go back to the laundry room, but she continued anyway. The ONE time she decides to put shoes where they really belong is the one time she was not suppose to do that and was told otherwise! Meanwhile Jack did as told, but then ran up to the shower while his feet were dirty. YUK reddish sand on my carpet. I was going to carry him.
Jack is just not "street smart". He does as his sister many times. There are woods and a brook in our backyard. the kids went there yesterday. Alyssa was wearing a skort and her imitiation crocs without socks. She went into the brook. JAck was wearing socks and full long jeans. He did the same.! yesterday was just a bad laundry day for me :(
Ok. So last night I decided to do something different. Since we seem to always be on Alyssa's case for all that she does wrong, I told her all the good things about her. This way she doesnt think that all we think about is all the "bad" or should I really say "misdirected" traits that she has. The traits that cause her to be bad, if controlled could be used for good instead of bad. For example, that fact that she is very emotional. If she could control it, she could do very well in theatre. Also, it can be refreshing for someone to let you know how they feel. But she over does it right now.
Today is FElix's bday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY FELIX!
Saturday, October 28, 2006
sat morning's are the hardest.
AFter a week of always being out of bed by 7am, working, dealing with the kids, etc, come Sat morning I cannot get out of bed. I did go to sleep around 10ish last night, my cell phone rang around 10:30 with a wrong number. Alyssa came with a bad dream around 5:30 , but felix took her to the guest room. Then he and everyone else was up between 7 and 7:30. I managed to nto get out of bed until 9. I did not sleep the entire time, but I was EXHAUSTED. Last night was Freaky Friday. This is the Halloween carnival at the school . This year each grade had several booths. I did not midn working the kindergarten dig for candy in the hay booth, but I was also suppose to run the "find the eyeballs in the slimy spaghetti" booth. Lucky for me, the moms already doing it agreed to continue. I bought them water to thank them. WE got home after 8pm and the kids watched charlie brown on TV until 9.
In years past they had a "haunted house" in the gym, music in the cafeteria, and a few activities. THe K-2 went early adn then later came the 3-5graders. This year everyone was all there, they had all these booths (and tickets were .25). The line to get in was still pretty bad, even with prepaid stuff, but overall I think it was nicer.
Speaking of halloween, I really should just get Jack a real darth vader instead of piecemealing one together. If any go on clearance before tuesday...
Speaking of Jack, Thursday night I got note home from the gym teacher bout how he did not listen and was disrespectful. ARGGGG . Next time ti happens before Xmas, he will not get an S in gym. Not that colleges look at it, but still.... Anyway, while working the booth last night, the mom working it with me stated that she had been in the class that day for rumpus bash (not sure what that was) and that Jack was so nicely behaved! . I was in shock over that. I know he can do it. He does it at home often enuf....
And finally , speaking of speaking, I do read all the comments on this blog and appreciate all that read it. It makes it worth my while to share my thoughts.
Well today we have a bday party and halloweeen party at the skating rink. I also am trying to give away my expensive doll house that pretty much fell apart and is hugh. I listed it on freecycle. Soemone was suppose to get it, but I was running late and could not contact them. They got pissy with me, so the next person is coming to get it. I could not help it, being late that day.
The cats live in teh basement at night and its a cat spell nightmare. The carpet is horrible (berber with no padding; glue down). When Alyssa has her sleepover bday party the kids need to sleep in the basement, so I need to clean it up and get rid of the cat wrench. I cant completely mvoe the litter box, so I am somewhat limited. I will hire a carpet cleaner to come in. the office is also looking bad. I almost wish I had put hardwoods in here when I had done the rest of the 1st floor. the office is the only room with carpeting on the downstairs now.
ok, I am "speaking" far more than I intended.
In years past they had a "haunted house" in the gym, music in the cafeteria, and a few activities. THe K-2 went early adn then later came the 3-5graders. This year everyone was all there, they had all these booths (and tickets were .25). The line to get in was still pretty bad, even with prepaid stuff, but overall I think it was nicer.
Speaking of halloween, I really should just get Jack a real darth vader instead of piecemealing one together. If any go on clearance before tuesday...
Speaking of Jack, Thursday night I got note home from the gym teacher bout how he did not listen and was disrespectful. ARGGGG . Next time ti happens before Xmas, he will not get an S in gym. Not that colleges look at it, but still.... Anyway, while working the booth last night, the mom working it with me stated that she had been in the class that day for rumpus bash (not sure what that was) and that Jack was so nicely behaved! . I was in shock over that. I know he can do it. He does it at home often enuf....
And finally , speaking of speaking, I do read all the comments on this blog and appreciate all that read it. It makes it worth my while to share my thoughts.
Well today we have a bday party and halloweeen party at the skating rink. I also am trying to give away my expensive doll house that pretty much fell apart and is hugh. I listed it on freecycle. Soemone was suppose to get it, but I was running late and could not contact them. They got pissy with me, so the next person is coming to get it. I could not help it, being late that day.
The cats live in teh basement at night and its a cat spell nightmare. The carpet is horrible (berber with no padding; glue down). When Alyssa has her sleepover bday party the kids need to sleep in the basement, so I need to clean it up and get rid of the cat wrench. I cant completely mvoe the litter box, so I am somewhat limited. I will hire a carpet cleaner to come in. the office is also looking bad. I almost wish I had put hardwoods in here when I had done the rest of the 1st floor. the office is the only room with carpeting on the downstairs now.
ok, I am "speaking" far more than I intended.
Thursday, October 26, 2006
yes, they really do have batteries...
last night I went to sleep. about 1/2 hour later I heard a beep noise. Felix heard it too. This was definately not our new pet in the attic (speaking of which, it cant be a mouse, maybe a squirrel?). So we discover its out downstairs smoke detector. So I say to Felix "the battery must be dying". Felix says back to me, "how does it have batteries if its wired into the house". I said, trust me, it has batteries (lost of electricity, etc). He did get a ladder and could nto get the %&$# thing open . finally did, and sure enough, there was the 9 volt. :)
now back to sleep. I had a hard time falling back down. Then in the middle of night, Felix is "snoring" so I move to the guest room. Around 5:30 am Alyssa is making her sometimes nightly treck to the guest room. I move back, but at 6am felix is up for the day. I HATE his 7am days on wed and thurs. I end up getting such poor sleep. Of course, I sorta do fall back, and then its 7am and I am scrambling to get the kids ready. Alyssa was pretty good, but JAck was slow on the go. He is the one that goes down before 8:30 and many times I have to wake him up. Then again, last year he was still taking naps. But in my usual manner I got the kids dressed, teeth brushed, milked, fed, and out the door in under 20 minutes. The worse part was that Jack wanted to bring lunch and we are out of bread. I ended up putting some chicken in tupperware. He is much better than Alyssa in remembering to bring home the tupperware.
so YAWN YAWN for the day.
now back to sleep. I had a hard time falling back down. Then in the middle of night, Felix is "snoring" so I move to the guest room. Around 5:30 am Alyssa is making her sometimes nightly treck to the guest room. I move back, but at 6am felix is up for the day. I HATE his 7am days on wed and thurs. I end up getting such poor sleep. Of course, I sorta do fall back, and then its 7am and I am scrambling to get the kids ready. Alyssa was pretty good, but JAck was slow on the go. He is the one that goes down before 8:30 and many times I have to wake him up. Then again, last year he was still taking naps. But in my usual manner I got the kids dressed, teeth brushed, milked, fed, and out the door in under 20 minutes. The worse part was that Jack wanted to bring lunch and we are out of bread. I ended up putting some chicken in tupperware. He is much better than Alyssa in remembering to bring home the tupperware.
so YAWN YAWN for the day.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
I should have never made the changes..?
We are going to Florida for the long election day weekend. (no school on tuesday). We originally we going to take a 9am flight on sat morning the 4th. Well, do you remember that friend that we went to the concert with? The mom had mentioned to me that her daughter's sleepover birthday party was the night before. I mentioned having to get Alyssa very early. When I got home I realized that I had never really bought the tickets! So that was the good thing. The bad thing was that the next couple of flights were not so inexpensive, so now we dont arrive in florida until 3pm! OK, it was my mistake; I never finished booking the tickets. What I cannot remember is if that very early flight was still avail at the good price or not.
Now, this bday party is supposily less than 2 weeks away and Alyssa has not received an invitation. I am assuming that after the "incident" where Alyssa got mad at the friend over her plastic cat breaking, and the friend then got all upset over Alyssa getting mad, that the mom and kid no longer want Alyssa as a friend. Add in the fact that they are also moving away. But I am not 100% sure. I dont know what to tell Alyssa. I already had started to buy some of the presents (getting a bunch of little things). On top of that, now we have a wasted 1/2 day, when we could have been in florida (if I remember that the 9am flight was still avail). I am going to call the airlines to find out how "full" the earlier flights are, aka can we go standby. We are a family of 4, so that may or may not work. I will wait until late next week to do so. Of course, Alyssa could still be invited, but who knows. I HATE these awkward social situations. Alyssa called up and has apologized over getting upset. I wish I knew if she was going to the birthday party or not. I cannot just ask the mom outright. that would put her in an awkward position. I think I am going to email about something else and see if she brings it up. Even if Alyssa is not invited I am still giving the presents that I got already. They are specific to this child's interests.
Now onto another change I was considering. Last month I had an incident where my pediatrician did not call me back for a week. I was furious. It almost felt like I was back in my dating days and my boyfriend was not calling me back. I was ready to switch peds. Eventually I heard from him and did back down. Yesterday I saw him for Jack's 6 year. He apologized again and talked about how that particular time when I called was bad due to his desk being filled with tons of paperwork at his main office (I see him at a different office). I dont like his "excuse" , but then again I still like him as a Dr. That is the hard part. I talked to the office staff at this office, and the woman I know that has been there forever. I decided that if I want to find him, I will speak to her, and she will track him down at the other office (if not a tuesday).
Back to Jack. He is now 50%tile for weight. He gained 8lbs this year.! Honestly he doesnt overeat. He just has his dads genetics :(. To even make that point, he is only 20%tile for height (felix is only 5'5"). My poor son. He got the flu nasal spray instead of the vaccine. The bad news is that they have never done bloodwork on him and would like that done. This is not going over too well for Jack. Will have to find a way to do this without him taking a fit. They want a fasting test, so it will be first thing in the am.
I have really tried hard not to yell at Alyssa these last few days. She is still pushing all my buttons. I am trying to calmly but firmly not give in to her.
Yesterday we had no DSL or phone service at home. When I called the phone company they said it could take up to 2 days to fix! I was like what? It was fixed by this morning, but they give worse case scenerio. I could not imagine no DSL and phone for 2 days at home. Geeessh I am so dependent on these things.
Now, this bday party is supposily less than 2 weeks away and Alyssa has not received an invitation. I am assuming that after the "incident" where Alyssa got mad at the friend over her plastic cat breaking, and the friend then got all upset over Alyssa getting mad, that the mom and kid no longer want Alyssa as a friend. Add in the fact that they are also moving away. But I am not 100% sure. I dont know what to tell Alyssa. I already had started to buy some of the presents (getting a bunch of little things). On top of that, now we have a wasted 1/2 day, when we could have been in florida (if I remember that the 9am flight was still avail). I am going to call the airlines to find out how "full" the earlier flights are, aka can we go standby. We are a family of 4, so that may or may not work. I will wait until late next week to do so. Of course, Alyssa could still be invited, but who knows. I HATE these awkward social situations. Alyssa called up and has apologized over getting upset. I wish I knew if she was going to the birthday party or not. I cannot just ask the mom outright. that would put her in an awkward position. I think I am going to email about something else and see if she brings it up. Even if Alyssa is not invited I am still giving the presents that I got already. They are specific to this child's interests.
Now onto another change I was considering. Last month I had an incident where my pediatrician did not call me back for a week. I was furious. It almost felt like I was back in my dating days and my boyfriend was not calling me back. I was ready to switch peds. Eventually I heard from him and did back down. Yesterday I saw him for Jack's 6 year. He apologized again and talked about how that particular time when I called was bad due to his desk being filled with tons of paperwork at his main office (I see him at a different office). I dont like his "excuse" , but then again I still like him as a Dr. That is the hard part. I talked to the office staff at this office, and the woman I know that has been there forever. I decided that if I want to find him, I will speak to her, and she will track him down at the other office (if not a tuesday).
Back to Jack. He is now 50%tile for weight. He gained 8lbs this year.! Honestly he doesnt overeat. He just has his dads genetics :(. To even make that point, he is only 20%tile for height (felix is only 5'5"). My poor son. He got the flu nasal spray instead of the vaccine. The bad news is that they have never done bloodwork on him and would like that done. This is not going over too well for Jack. Will have to find a way to do this without him taking a fit. They want a fasting test, so it will be first thing in the am.
I have really tried hard not to yell at Alyssa these last few days. She is still pushing all my buttons. I am trying to calmly but firmly not give in to her.
Yesterday we had no DSL or phone service at home. When I called the phone company they said it could take up to 2 days to fix! I was like what? It was fixed by this morning, but they give worse case scenerio. I could not imagine no DSL and phone for 2 days at home. Geeessh I am so dependent on these things.
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
the creatures that lurk in the attic (and our mind)
We have something living in our attic, since it became cold this week. We think it might be a mouse or mice, but maybe a squirrel. Felix put mouse traps in the attic, along with peanut butter (much better than cheese!). So far nothing. But I dont enjoy my 4am wakings.
Its so hard to get up in the dark these days. AFter this weekend, with Daylight savings time, it should be light out again the am. Getting the kids up is also not so fun. These days the car is in teh driveway since my Pacifica barely fits in the garage and causes me stress pulling out. I HATE that I have the 2 door garage. It is probably structural , so I cannot change it. My car has maybe an inch on each side to get out. Not happy about that. The minivan was a few inches smaller, so it had 2 inches on each side. Besides, felix pulled that one out. The regular car will fit nicely. So maybe I will give the spot to felix. The other side is where the regular car used to be, but it had a lengthwise problem with the staircase in front. So now that area has all the "junk". We no longer hang up the bikes, etc. Easier for the kids to get to everything. So the solution is probably to let felix have the garage on most days, except in extreme weather. We had our first frost/freeze today, which is unusual. normally not until mid november.
The other day I was asked if I was getting a sitter and going to any adult halloween parties. Apparently my brother and his wife are invited to some. My brother has quite the social life. They ALWAYS have at least one couple to go out with on Sat night. Sometimes more. He can have a party and easily have 40-50 people there. I would struggle with 20. I have always wanted to be that social person, with tons of friends, "playdates" etc. It just has not worked out for me. Between my insecurity, and Felix also not being that social a person, nor caring to be, it has not happened for me. I just have to realize I am who I am, and those who want to be friends with me will be. I will never have that long list of friends that my brother and some of my friends themselves have. This is why Alyssa having friends is so important to ME. probably more important to me than it is to her. I want her to have what I never had, since I was such an insecure child. Time will tell how important it is to HER. With Jack things are different. Boys and friendship are very different than girls.
Its so hard to get up in the dark these days. AFter this weekend, with Daylight savings time, it should be light out again the am. Getting the kids up is also not so fun. These days the car is in teh driveway since my Pacifica barely fits in the garage and causes me stress pulling out. I HATE that I have the 2 door garage. It is probably structural , so I cannot change it. My car has maybe an inch on each side to get out. Not happy about that. The minivan was a few inches smaller, so it had 2 inches on each side. Besides, felix pulled that one out. The regular car will fit nicely. So maybe I will give the spot to felix. The other side is where the regular car used to be, but it had a lengthwise problem with the staircase in front. So now that area has all the "junk". We no longer hang up the bikes, etc. Easier for the kids to get to everything. So the solution is probably to let felix have the garage on most days, except in extreme weather. We had our first frost/freeze today, which is unusual. normally not until mid november.
The other day I was asked if I was getting a sitter and going to any adult halloween parties. Apparently my brother and his wife are invited to some. My brother has quite the social life. They ALWAYS have at least one couple to go out with on Sat night. Sometimes more. He can have a party and easily have 40-50 people there. I would struggle with 20. I have always wanted to be that social person, with tons of friends, "playdates" etc. It just has not worked out for me. Between my insecurity, and Felix also not being that social a person, nor caring to be, it has not happened for me. I just have to realize I am who I am, and those who want to be friends with me will be. I will never have that long list of friends that my brother and some of my friends themselves have. This is why Alyssa having friends is so important to ME. probably more important to me than it is to her. I want her to have what I never had, since I was such an insecure child. Time will tell how important it is to HER. With Jack things are different. Boys and friendship are very different than girls.
Monday, October 23, 2006
tickets, got your tickets here ....
Ok, this was a crazy weekend for the credit card. Plus somehow I end up buying tickets for friends as well. They reimburse me, but sometimes I want to say "no" to doing this. But I am not good at all at saying no to most people. First, we got cheetah girls tickets for the 31st of Dec. This time I cannot go to the concert (out of town), but would like to make enough money to help pay for Alyssa's bday party. I got one set of good seats, but one set of so-so seats. The problem is that on ebay I see that everyone else has the same idea. got a set for my friend as well.
Then I got tickets to see high school musical, the musical at the fox theatre. Apparently season ticket holders got all the good seats. I could only get "meh" seats.
All these tickets start at 50$. Boy are things expensive!
I honestly should take Jack , not Alyssa to see high school musical. Alyssa's behavior has been so bad. Continued all the day yesterday and this again this morning. She is such a hypocrite. She is allowed to wake up her brother whenever she wants, but I asked him to wake her up and dont even go there.! She was upset yesterday because we could nto remember what we gave her for her birthday last year and so we "owe her" 2 gifts. Yeh right. We owe her nothing. Then she tried to sweet talk about how she was wrong, but I oculd make it all right by giving her a goody bag from jacks party. The deal with that is that she needs to do 3 pages of math problems to get one. So no dice there. I am so close to taking away freaky friday (halloween at the school) and would even consider taking away trick or treating , or part thereof (aka only 4 houses). I know I have been losing my temper at her, but for days this has been going on. I think I need to call a truce and just end once and for all. I am NOT giving into her. Though felix underminds me at times. He accidentally hit her with a soccer ball and wnated to give her the goody bag. We need to nip her self centered ness right now.
Up for this week. JAcks dr appt.
Then I got tickets to see high school musical, the musical at the fox theatre. Apparently season ticket holders got all the good seats. I could only get "meh" seats.
All these tickets start at 50$. Boy are things expensive!
I honestly should take Jack , not Alyssa to see high school musical. Alyssa's behavior has been so bad. Continued all the day yesterday and this again this morning. She is such a hypocrite. She is allowed to wake up her brother whenever she wants, but I asked him to wake her up and dont even go there.! She was upset yesterday because we could nto remember what we gave her for her birthday last year and so we "owe her" 2 gifts. Yeh right. We owe her nothing. Then she tried to sweet talk about how she was wrong, but I oculd make it all right by giving her a goody bag from jacks party. The deal with that is that she needs to do 3 pages of math problems to get one. So no dice there. I am so close to taking away freaky friday (halloween at the school) and would even consider taking away trick or treating , or part thereof (aka only 4 houses). I know I have been losing my temper at her, but for days this has been going on. I think I need to call a truce and just end once and for all. I am NOT giving into her. Though felix underminds me at times. He accidentally hit her with a soccer ball and wnated to give her the goody bag. We need to nip her self centered ness right now.
Up for this week. JAcks dr appt.
Sunday, October 22, 2006
The party's over...
Jacks party is now over. It worked out great, but all the worrying beforehand made me stressed out. I do that to myself. Do I have enough food, drinks, etc. Will kids show up? how many will cancel, will everyone have a good time? With food and everything it ended up costing me ~250$. The goodie bags drove me crazy. 20 of them. This was the year though that I was going to do it right for Jack. Many years the party was at the house or one time at his daycare. Last year at the nature center 2 kids got stung.
Jack loved all his presents and kept saying that he "will invite them again next year".
Alyssa, on the other hand, has not been a pleasure. I guess I have caused this, but the attention has to always be on her. When in the party room she wanted to "run things". She was being obnoxious. I did let her hand out cookie cake (we had either cookie cake or fudgie the whale from carvel, thanks to our friends), but then she wanted to hand out the goodie bags that I let her make for me. She was grabbing, so I told her no. Then a full out crying spout ensued. I am sure that since she did not get much sleep the night before, that had something to do with it.
Currently she is in sunday school and it is so peaceful around here. Jack is busy with all his legos. THough he wants me to open this hot wheels toy that he got. I am going later to meet up with a friend who lives intown and is still single.
Pics will be posted on our ofoto site, as soon as felix "gets to them" All pics that he takes needs to go thru his "editing" .
Next on my list... felix's bday. But I waiting until black friday to get his gift (33 more days!)
Jack loved all his presents and kept saying that he "will invite them again next year".
Alyssa, on the other hand, has not been a pleasure. I guess I have caused this, but the attention has to always be on her. When in the party room she wanted to "run things". She was being obnoxious. I did let her hand out cookie cake (we had either cookie cake or fudgie the whale from carvel, thanks to our friends), but then she wanted to hand out the goodie bags that I let her make for me. She was grabbing, so I told her no. Then a full out crying spout ensued. I am sure that since she did not get much sleep the night before, that had something to do with it.
Currently she is in sunday school and it is so peaceful around here. Jack is busy with all his legos. THough he wants me to open this hot wheels toy that he got. I am going later to meet up with a friend who lives intown and is still single.
Pics will be posted on our ofoto site, as soon as felix "gets to them" All pics that he takes needs to go thru his "editing" .
Next on my list... felix's bday. But I waiting until black friday to get his gift (33 more days!)
Friday, October 20, 2006
take away my mommy card...
Ok, I did the worse thing a mommy could ever do. In the heat of anger I said something that I did not mean. If I had been anywhere else but the car I would have walked away from the situation.
Wed night , Alyssa's homework was a nightmare. It took forever and she eventually conned her dad into helping her (writing the numbers down, but not adding them). That drained me. Then I picked her up from afterschool to take her to gymnastics. She was completely ignoring me when I asked her about papers and I started to get real angry. I need to know what she needs to keep and what can be thrown away. Then I asked about this one sheet and she said that it had to be done by friday. She had not done it. I started to try to explain it to her, aka what she needed to do, and she would have nothing to do with it and ran out of the room. We got the car and I was already starting to steam up. We argued about it, and then she was going to work on it, but she decided to was better to tear it up instead! That is is when I lost it. I started screaming at her, threatening to take everything away, and then I told her that I hated her at that moment. I SHOULD have said that I hated what she did. I stopped myself and apologized and explained to her that I did not mean it and that I said that in anger. AFter I yelled we were both calmer as well. We got the gymnastics place and we taped the work back together. I then came up with an appropriate punishment if she did nto do it. She went into gymnastics and did a great job on going around the bottom bar. She had never done that before. When she got out I told her I was proud of her. We talked some more. I wanted to let her know what I did was wrong. In the car, in the middle of traffic, I had no where to walk away. I tried to explain how important doing her homework is.
Then, of course, to quelsh my guilt, I am letting her have a friend spend the night. At one point while I was angry with her, I wanted to cancel a playdate that she on sat, with her old BF that she never sees. I told her I wanted to do that, but that it was more important to keep that playdate for various reasons, so I could not use that punishment. And the girl that is spending the night is someone else that she has not seen in a while.
Now that I am beyond all that..... guilt still there.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACK!!!!!! 6 years ago today I went to a nonstress test. I really wanted him born, since it was also a friday and I wanted the Bris on the weekend if possible. It was my due date anyway. Jack "failed" the nonstress test, and since one the doc's was already at the hospital with my neighbor who was due the same day, they told me to go in. I got in around noon, they checked me in around 1-2 broke my water, I walked around a bit, got some pitocin around 4-5 got my epidural, and then around 9:30 at night I started pushing. he was 9 1/2 lbs! Good thing I did not wait.
Today I did science day for kindergarten. I got the spacefood experiment. That was fun. plus I only had to talk 4 times. I had a "bye" time, with teh way the schedule worked. Jack was thrilled to have me there. I did Alyssa's the last 2 years. This year I am not doing 2nd grade and just kindy. Science day always exhausts me. AFter work I am going to try to stop at trader joes since they opened today. But I also need to run to costco. Busy day tomorrow.
I still feel guilty. I should have NEVER said that. I hope to never say it again. The anger from the last 2 days and dealing with the homework issues just built up.
Wed night , Alyssa's homework was a nightmare. It took forever and she eventually conned her dad into helping her (writing the numbers down, but not adding them). That drained me. Then I picked her up from afterschool to take her to gymnastics. She was completely ignoring me when I asked her about papers and I started to get real angry. I need to know what she needs to keep and what can be thrown away. Then I asked about this one sheet and she said that it had to be done by friday. She had not done it. I started to try to explain it to her, aka what she needed to do, and she would have nothing to do with it and ran out of the room. We got the car and I was already starting to steam up. We argued about it, and then she was going to work on it, but she decided to was better to tear it up instead! That is is when I lost it. I started screaming at her, threatening to take everything away, and then I told her that I hated her at that moment. I SHOULD have said that I hated what she did. I stopped myself and apologized and explained to her that I did not mean it and that I said that in anger. AFter I yelled we were both calmer as well. We got the gymnastics place and we taped the work back together. I then came up with an appropriate punishment if she did nto do it. She went into gymnastics and did a great job on going around the bottom bar. She had never done that before. When she got out I told her I was proud of her. We talked some more. I wanted to let her know what I did was wrong. In the car, in the middle of traffic, I had no where to walk away. I tried to explain how important doing her homework is.
Then, of course, to quelsh my guilt, I am letting her have a friend spend the night. At one point while I was angry with her, I wanted to cancel a playdate that she on sat, with her old BF that she never sees. I told her I wanted to do that, but that it was more important to keep that playdate for various reasons, so I could not use that punishment. And the girl that is spending the night is someone else that she has not seen in a while.
Now that I am beyond all that..... guilt still there.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACK!!!!!! 6 years ago today I went to a nonstress test. I really wanted him born, since it was also a friday and I wanted the Bris on the weekend if possible. It was my due date anyway. Jack "failed" the nonstress test, and since one the doc's was already at the hospital with my neighbor who was due the same day, they told me to go in. I got in around noon, they checked me in around 1-2 broke my water, I walked around a bit, got some pitocin around 4-5 got my epidural, and then around 9:30 at night I started pushing. he was 9 1/2 lbs! Good thing I did not wait.
Today I did science day for kindergarten. I got the spacefood experiment. That was fun. plus I only had to talk 4 times. I had a "bye" time, with teh way the schedule worked. Jack was thrilled to have me there. I did Alyssa's the last 2 years. This year I am not doing 2nd grade and just kindy. Science day always exhausts me. AFter work I am going to try to stop at trader joes since they opened today. But I also need to run to costco. Busy day tomorrow.
I still feel guilty. I should have NEVER said that. I hope to never say it again. The anger from the last 2 days and dealing with the homework issues just built up.
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Im really not that shallow....
I know I can probably seem "shallow" at times, being into bargain shopping and all (you should have seen the sale at old navy yesterday). Also that I am into pop culture as well. But there is a side of me that sometimes gets interested in more "serious" things.
While on vacation last year my sister in law lent me the book "the other Boleyn girl" This was about the period of Henry the VIII (the king who had 6 wives), and mostly from the viewpoint of the sister of his 2nd wife Anne (who was beheaded eventually). After reading the book I wanted to find out more about all this. So I got the movie "henry VIII". Nothing was really on TV last night (no, I dont watch dancing with the stars), so I watched it. Then this morning I read all about all the monarch's around that period and forward, and how they came to be. Also how they ruled, etc. Also read more on Henry himself and Anne. Boy, they quickly beheaded people back then. no "real" court. Its interesting to see how much church and state was intertwined as well, and how that changed. Henry VIII was the first to challenge this, by wanting an annullment and when the pope said "no" , he said, well "I am the king, so I declare that the pope has no right to tell me what to do. I will pass a law where I can make the decision".
Anyway, I gave myself a fascinating history lesson this morning. I also did manage to solve a customer's problem as well on something I know little about. Lucky for me, it turns out he was running an old version.
Busy rest of week. Today is activity day. Tomorrow is dad's for donuts. Friday is science day and jack's bday. Sat late afternoon is his party, but earlier Alyssa has a playdate at the rink with her old best friend. Sunday I am trying to have lunch with a friend who is one of the few that is still single.
While on vacation last year my sister in law lent me the book "the other Boleyn girl" This was about the period of Henry the VIII (the king who had 6 wives), and mostly from the viewpoint of the sister of his 2nd wife Anne (who was beheaded eventually). After reading the book I wanted to find out more about all this. So I got the movie "henry VIII". Nothing was really on TV last night (no, I dont watch dancing with the stars), so I watched it. Then this morning I read all about all the monarch's around that period and forward, and how they came to be. Also how they ruled, etc. Also read more on Henry himself and Anne. Boy, they quickly beheaded people back then. no "real" court. Its interesting to see how much church and state was intertwined as well, and how that changed. Henry VIII was the first to challenge this, by wanting an annullment and when the pope said "no" , he said, well "I am the king, so I declare that the pope has no right to tell me what to do. I will pass a law where I can make the decision".
Anyway, I gave myself a fascinating history lesson this morning. I also did manage to solve a customer's problem as well on something I know little about. Lucky for me, it turns out he was running an old version.
Busy rest of week. Today is activity day. Tomorrow is dad's for donuts. Friday is science day and jack's bday. Sat late afternoon is his party, but earlier Alyssa has a playdate at the rink with her old best friend. Sunday I am trying to have lunch with a friend who is one of the few that is still single.
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
comedy gold
Today I need to talk about TV. Dr 90210 is such comedy gold! With Dr's Reys boondoggle to venezuela to find out "why they win miss universe", to the new Dr, who when asked about looking for a mate states "They need to have a great personality, as I can always change the outside", to hooter girls, needing well, hooters. And finally a rich 19 year spending mommy/daddy's money to have lipo above the pubic area, after losing 60 lbs and still having fat there. I thought the new guy's boob job was not as good as Dr Reys.
And then right before was the bachelor. . I have to admit I channel surfed between it and Shalom in the home. This season is good, but I honestly dont see any connections like I have in the past. he barely has spent time with most of these women. Waiting for more one on one dates.
OK, done with the shallowness here. I am allowed once in a while. Last night my kids actually ate somewhat nutricious dinner. You have to remember that my kids are picky, but in different ways. Its too easy to give them pizza, since that his something they both like. Alyssa will take mushrooms and I can put broccoli on Jack's. But last night Jack had fresh strawberry's, steamed broccoli, and white meat nuggets. Alyssa had bread, peaches, and chicken noodle soup.
It is so yuck outside. Rainy and windy. It was still dark when we left the house the morning.
Today I neeed to go to walmart and get stuff for jack's party, as well as for donuts for dads, and freaky friday.
And then right before was the bachelor. . I have to admit I channel surfed between it and Shalom in the home. This season is good, but I honestly dont see any connections like I have in the past. he barely has spent time with most of these women. Waiting for more one on one dates.
OK, done with the shallowness here. I am allowed once in a while. Last night my kids actually ate somewhat nutricious dinner. You have to remember that my kids are picky, but in different ways. Its too easy to give them pizza, since that his something they both like. Alyssa will take mushrooms and I can put broccoli on Jack's. But last night Jack had fresh strawberry's, steamed broccoli, and white meat nuggets. Alyssa had bread, peaches, and chicken noodle soup.
It is so yuck outside. Rainy and windy. It was still dark when we left the house the morning.
Today I neeed to go to walmart and get stuff for jack's party, as well as for donuts for dads, and freaky friday.
Monday, October 16, 2006
things I forgot!
oops forgot to mention. Felix can now come to the dads for donuts. Also JAck's godfather might come as well.
I had Jack's conference on friday. It was not as bad as I thought, with all his behavioral stuff (not staying on green lights). What shocked me the most is how well academically he is doing. I knew he was smart and on target, but he is ahead and in the top reading group (with all girls). I know his math skills are good. Also, there was no complaints about him completing work (something I got with Alyssa). The big think is that he argues about doing things he doesnt want to do. But then there are times when he is utterly charming. Friday he had an excellent day and she was telling me that while waiting for afterschool he "taught" her the tango (he learned it from one part of the cheetah girls II movie).
The other shocking thing is that I have not sent Jack to Sunday school, but last night we were discussing some of the hebrew prayers and he knew some parts of them. I was shocked. He has a good memory of things. THat is why he does great with sight words. He can hear something a few times an also remember that (the prayers). Maybe he is much smarter than I give him credit for.
I had Jack's conference on friday. It was not as bad as I thought, with all his behavioral stuff (not staying on green lights). What shocked me the most is how well academically he is doing. I knew he was smart and on target, but he is ahead and in the top reading group (with all girls). I know his math skills are good. Also, there was no complaints about him completing work (something I got with Alyssa). The big think is that he argues about doing things he doesnt want to do. But then there are times when he is utterly charming. Friday he had an excellent day and she was telling me that while waiting for afterschool he "taught" her the tango (he learned it from one part of the cheetah girls II movie).
The other shocking thing is that I have not sent Jack to Sunday school, but last night we were discussing some of the hebrew prayers and he knew some parts of them. I was shocked. He has a good memory of things. THat is why he does great with sight words. He can hear something a few times an also remember that (the prayers). Maybe he is much smarter than I give him credit for.
my mission today and the weekend.
I can no longer find the tampons that I love on the shelves anywhere. the playtex web site lists them as still avail. Its the regular slimfits. Since my ablation many years ago I have very light periods. They last 4-5 days, but only the 1st couple days has any significant amt. The rest of the time I wear pantyliners. So I like small tampons. I hate the tampax brand.
Soooo I am going to call playtex (whose building happens to be one town over from where I grew up) and see what is up. I will report what I find.
We actually had a mellow weekend, compared to all the usually running around that I do. I sorta felt guilty letting the kids play the computer as much as they did, but then again I also made sure that they played outside each day for a good amount of time. Jack uses this website. www.starfall.com and is learning to read better from it. Its really amazing. Its better than a leappad. But at the same time my kids go to all the disney , jetix, etc kid websites.
So sat morning, jack did not have soccer. We hung out and the kids did the computer thing, taking turns. I ended up taking the kids to the skating rink. JAck , with all his charm, convinced some teens to help him. He comes to me and tells me that "he has a girlfriend". Alyssa was "bored" because she did not have friends to play with. Afterwards we went to the park and the kids played. (felix came along) . then we went to Whole foods and got dinner. The kids could not behave together in the store. Drives me crazy! I can take one or the other and be fine. We take both and bam!. Sat night JAck watched chitty chitty bang bang. He loved it. Alyssa did not want to watch it, so I gave her the new mp3 player (NOT an Ipod) and got it set it for her.
Sunday was more of the same laziness all morning. No sunday school. Why is it, that on Sat and Sunday morning, my kids are up so early, yet this morning I had to yank them out of bed? Also, it annoys me that alyssa comes straight to our bed. She can go to the guest room, turn on the TV there, or do anything else. I want to sleep in on the weekends, now that they are older. JAck is capable of doing all of this. Alyssa would sleep with us every night if we let her. Anyway, by noon I was getting itchy to get out, so off the grocery store with Jack. no problems there. Then I eventually took them to the park, had felix then take Jack to another park, and I took Alyssa to Jcpenneys for their big sale. Once again I bought clothes for her. She doesnt need any! I know I get great deals, but I need to stop. I did buy myself a shirt and pair of pants as well.
Sunday night TV drives me crazy. I dont have a tivo yet, but do have a VCR and DVD recorder. I just normally dont use them, unless I will not be home.
I like the beginning and end of extreme makeover home edition. I love the Amazing race. I like desperate housewives, but also Cold case sometimes.. What really messes me up is when the CBS shows start late due to football. So amazing race runs late while desperate housewifes is on. and WHY OH WHY are the commercials on at the same time? Even with the delay? I know I will have a TIVO before long. I just dont want to spend the money if it can be helped. In that way I am cheap. I will go to a sale and spend 10$ on clothes that Alyssa doesnt need, but would nto spend 10$/month on Tivo or something like that.
This has gotten pretty long. hope I did not bore everyone to death.
Soooo I am going to call playtex (whose building happens to be one town over from where I grew up) and see what is up. I will report what I find.
We actually had a mellow weekend, compared to all the usually running around that I do. I sorta felt guilty letting the kids play the computer as much as they did, but then again I also made sure that they played outside each day for a good amount of time. Jack uses this website. www.starfall.com and is learning to read better from it. Its really amazing. Its better than a leappad. But at the same time my kids go to all the disney , jetix, etc kid websites.
So sat morning, jack did not have soccer. We hung out and the kids did the computer thing, taking turns. I ended up taking the kids to the skating rink. JAck , with all his charm, convinced some teens to help him. He comes to me and tells me that "he has a girlfriend". Alyssa was "bored" because she did not have friends to play with. Afterwards we went to the park and the kids played. (felix came along) . then we went to Whole foods and got dinner. The kids could not behave together in the store. Drives me crazy! I can take one or the other and be fine. We take both and bam!. Sat night JAck watched chitty chitty bang bang. He loved it. Alyssa did not want to watch it, so I gave her the new mp3 player (NOT an Ipod) and got it set it for her.
Sunday was more of the same laziness all morning. No sunday school. Why is it, that on Sat and Sunday morning, my kids are up so early, yet this morning I had to yank them out of bed? Also, it annoys me that alyssa comes straight to our bed. She can go to the guest room, turn on the TV there, or do anything else. I want to sleep in on the weekends, now that they are older. JAck is capable of doing all of this. Alyssa would sleep with us every night if we let her. Anyway, by noon I was getting itchy to get out, so off the grocery store with Jack. no problems there. Then I eventually took them to the park, had felix then take Jack to another park, and I took Alyssa to Jcpenneys for their big sale. Once again I bought clothes for her. She doesnt need any! I know I get great deals, but I need to stop. I did buy myself a shirt and pair of pants as well.
Sunday night TV drives me crazy. I dont have a tivo yet, but do have a VCR and DVD recorder. I just normally dont use them, unless I will not be home.
I like the beginning and end of extreme makeover home edition. I love the Amazing race. I like desperate housewives, but also Cold case sometimes.. What really messes me up is when the CBS shows start late due to football. So amazing race runs late while desperate housewifes is on. and WHY OH WHY are the commercials on at the same time? Even with the delay? I know I will have a TIVO before long. I just dont want to spend the money if it can be helped. In that way I am cheap. I will go to a sale and spend 10$ on clothes that Alyssa doesnt need, but would nto spend 10$/month on Tivo or something like that.
This has gotten pretty long. hope I did not bore everyone to death.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
last night.
I am going to try to upload pics from last nights concert. YES we sat in traffic for 90 minutes to get there, and 30 minutes before we could even leave the parking lot. But Alyssa had a blast. Unfortunately I did not get pics of Alyssas one friend because she sat somewhere else (the one we drove with), but did get her other friend.
Friday, October 13, 2006
Our little insecurities coming out to play.
The concert is tonight. We were support to carpool with Alyssa's friend.
Alyssa's friend's mom called me back last night. She has another grownup friend going as well and said that she wanted to take her own car.That they would all go together and could they "follow me". That is crazy! The concert is across town and during a Friday afternoon rush hour. I mentioned that my car has a TV for the girls to watch and that it holds 6 easily. So she is going to get back to me. But if she decides to go with her friend, I have another friend going that we could carpool. It seems a waste to take so manycars.
In typical Sandy fashion, I now think that this mom dislikes me and that now my daughter will no longer be invited to her daughters bday party; and thus alyssa will have one less friend, etc etc. That is the insecure person in me talking. I take something simple and think that someone doesnt like me, its my fault, etc. I need to get over this.
Alyssa's friend's mom called me back last night. She has another grownup friend going as well and said that she wanted to take her own car.That they would all go together and could they "follow me". That is crazy! The concert is across town and during a Friday afternoon rush hour. I mentioned that my car has a TV for the girls to watch and that it holds 6 easily. So she is going to get back to me. But if she decides to go with her friend, I have another friend going that we could carpool. It seems a waste to take so manycars.
In typical Sandy fashion, I now think that this mom dislikes me and that now my daughter will no longer be invited to her daughters bday party; and thus alyssa will have one less friend, etc etc. That is the insecure person in me talking. I take something simple and think that someone doesnt like me, its my fault, etc. I need to get over this.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
cant think of a title today ...
I am not sure what I am want to title this today. I am not even sure what I want to write about. I did write in my December mom's group about the "candy man" that has been going around trying to lure kids and some of the lessons that I am driving home with mine. Alyssa "gets it", but I do believe that Jack would go off with a stranger given the oppty. I really want to test this out at the park, asking a grownup that they dont know to attempt to lure them to their car and see what they do. The question is, who?
Tomorrow is the big concert. Hannah Montana and the Cheetah girls. Alyssa is very excited.I need to remember to get myself earlplugs. I could kick myself for not getting extra tickets for this one. After getting burned on American idol I did not. I could have made so much $$$. they are selling for 4 times their value. But alas, I am putting Alyssa's happiness in front of my need for greed.
From the paper today, the guy who owned a place called "the beer mug" died. This is where we used to go drink/eat after singles softball. This is the place where Felix tried to convince me that we needed to be more than friends. I resisted for so long.
Other general musings.... i love my new car, but it is near impossible to get out of the garage. I hate having individual garage doors. My old house just had one door. I honestly have maybe 3 inches clearance with the mirrors. I could pull the mirrors in each time... But I just know I will hit the garage at some point. I think I am going to save parking in the garage for really bad weather. Since I got the car, i have been parking in the driveway. The other car (sedan) barely fits on the other side lengthwise, but would fit nicely on this side. Maybe I will give the garage to felix most days. The other side now has all the bikes and toys down. its easier for the kids to play with stuff when its readily avail.
Tomorrow is the big concert. Hannah Montana and the Cheetah girls. Alyssa is very excited.I need to remember to get myself earlplugs. I could kick myself for not getting extra tickets for this one. After getting burned on American idol I did not. I could have made so much $$$. they are selling for 4 times their value. But alas, I am putting Alyssa's happiness in front of my need for greed.
From the paper today, the guy who owned a place called "the beer mug" died. This is where we used to go drink/eat after singles softball. This is the place where Felix tried to convince me that we needed to be more than friends. I resisted for so long.
Other general musings.... i love my new car, but it is near impossible to get out of the garage. I hate having individual garage doors. My old house just had one door. I honestly have maybe 3 inches clearance with the mirrors. I could pull the mirrors in each time... But I just know I will hit the garage at some point. I think I am going to save parking in the garage for really bad weather. Since I got the car, i have been parking in the driveway. The other car (sedan) barely fits on the other side lengthwise, but would fit nicely on this side. Maybe I will give the garage to felix most days. The other side now has all the bikes and toys down. its easier for the kids to play with stuff when its readily avail.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
priority and differences between moms and dads.
Yesterday Felix informed me that his request to take next Thursday off had been denied. He was going to do the "donuts with Dads" at Jack's school and have some Dr's appts that day. My original request was that he just go to work late. Normally they need him at 7am on Thursday. Why could he not work late? I know on days he is not suppose to be in at 7am, they have, at times asked him to come in. I would guess that someone else was going to be late or on vacation. I would not think twice about being late for work for a short enough event like "dads and donuts" (which will be "moms and muffins" in the spring). I have taken lunch breaks to do reading at school. I am coming in late the next day to do Science day and Jack's birthday. Normally I probably would not make a big deal out of this, but Felix almost missed Jack's preschool graduation because it was on a Friday! (friday is their "busy" day). We finally compromised that he would come and then go back to work and work late that night. What kills me here is that this company doesnt ever seem to value Felix. They dont give him promotions he deserves and the pay, is , well..... Honestly he should go look for another job, but that would require Felix (which would end up being me) to create a resume and work on getting a new job. Since I have not put doing HIS resume as MY priority, this has not happened. If I dont do it, it never gets done. Felix needs to take care of getting some genetic testing done for his heart condition. I told him what needs to be done with the paperwork, but unless I do it all, it wont get done. In this case it involves talking to people that would be so much easier for him to do.
Anyway, Felix thinks this blog will turn into "bash Felix". Honestly that is not my intention. I just dont understand how I can put my kids first and he cant. I do have a backup plan though. Jack's godfather is going to look into coming instead. When I asked Felix about this, he stated "my parents never came to school and that did not cause any damage". When I come to school all I see is how my kids eyes light up. Will not ever having lunch or making events or not volunteering cause permanent scars... probably not.. Will they bring on fond memories.. Most likely.
Enough on that topic. I have a moral dilemna about Alyssa and cheerleading. She really wants to do cheerleading, but with all the other activities I wanted a program that was very casual. last year this place came to the school one afternoon to do it. That was perfect. But unfortunately there were problems and that no longer happens. So I got a flyer about a program at a church that is minutes from my house. They have winter basketball and cheerleading. Not a big commitment and only 75$. So what is the problem? Its not that its a church program, but that they also include religious stuff in program. During 1/2 time of the games, and after each practice. They do a sort of bible study. This includes stuff related to Jesus. I send my child to Sunday school to learn about Judaism and I am trying to raise my children to be Jewish. I dont mind them being exposed to other religions, but at the age of 7/8, this could really confuse Alyssa. If she wanted to see what Xmas mass was about , that would not bother me, but I dont need her doing "bible study". So unfortunately I will not be signing her up. She is sad about this. I will need to find another casual cheerleading program. The one thru the Rec center is very intense and expensive. Or Alyssa can just wait until she is in highschool and become a cheerleader then :). She does gymnastics, theatre, and ice skating as it is. I know that she would give up any of those for cheerleading, but at this point I have no place to "send her". But once again, last night, all I had to do is look in her eyes, and what should have been an easy decision for me, was much harder.
Anyway, Felix thinks this blog will turn into "bash Felix". Honestly that is not my intention. I just dont understand how I can put my kids first and he cant. I do have a backup plan though. Jack's godfather is going to look into coming instead. When I asked Felix about this, he stated "my parents never came to school and that did not cause any damage". When I come to school all I see is how my kids eyes light up. Will not ever having lunch or making events or not volunteering cause permanent scars... probably not.. Will they bring on fond memories.. Most likely.
Enough on that topic. I have a moral dilemna about Alyssa and cheerleading. She really wants to do cheerleading, but with all the other activities I wanted a program that was very casual. last year this place came to the school one afternoon to do it. That was perfect. But unfortunately there were problems and that no longer happens. So I got a flyer about a program at a church that is minutes from my house. They have winter basketball and cheerleading. Not a big commitment and only 75$. So what is the problem? Its not that its a church program, but that they also include religious stuff in program. During 1/2 time of the games, and after each practice. They do a sort of bible study. This includes stuff related to Jesus. I send my child to Sunday school to learn about Judaism and I am trying to raise my children to be Jewish. I dont mind them being exposed to other religions, but at the age of 7/8, this could really confuse Alyssa. If she wanted to see what Xmas mass was about , that would not bother me, but I dont need her doing "bible study". So unfortunately I will not be signing her up. She is sad about this. I will need to find another casual cheerleading program. The one thru the Rec center is very intense and expensive. Or Alyssa can just wait until she is in highschool and become a cheerleader then :). She does gymnastics, theatre, and ice skating as it is. I know that she would give up any of those for cheerleading, but at this point I have no place to "send her". But once again, last night, all I had to do is look in her eyes, and what should have been an easy decision for me, was much harder.
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
my quest for mediawhoredome
I am always trying to get in my 15 minutes of fame. I have had small bits over the years, i.e. being interviewed by CNN last Black friday for example. I did try to get on the Martha Stewart show last year as "Americas worse cook", but did not make it.
Well today I got an email from the traderjoes fan site saying that the local paper was doing interviewed. So famewhore that I am , I sent email and got a call. I will let you know when I am "published"
By the way, I have never tried out for any of the other "reality" shows. I would not last on Survivor, Felix and I would end up killing each other on Amazing race, I dont want to do wife swap, or supernanny (despite threatening my kids that I would). I dont have talent, my kids dont really have some super talent either at this point. I dont want a new wardrobe from "what not to wear" (and I dont dress that bad....). I would not have minded trading spaces, or any other of the HGTV shows. If I had money I would do designers challenge.. At the time I was giving birth, baby story only took place in the California ... :). The cooking thing was as close as I have gotten, and the only one I have tried out for.
Well today I got an email from the traderjoes fan site saying that the local paper was doing interviewed. So famewhore that I am , I sent email and got a call. I will let you know when I am "published"
By the way, I have never tried out for any of the other "reality" shows. I would not last on Survivor, Felix and I would end up killing each other on Amazing race, I dont want to do wife swap, or supernanny (despite threatening my kids that I would). I dont have talent, my kids dont really have some super talent either at this point. I dont want a new wardrobe from "what not to wear" (and I dont dress that bad....). I would not have minded trading spaces, or any other of the HGTV shows. If I had money I would do designers challenge.. At the time I was giving birth, baby story only took place in the California ... :). The cooking thing was as close as I have gotten, and the only one I have tried out for.
comfort TV
One of my favorite shows is back on the air. Dr 90210. I love this show, not because I want breast implants, but because it is comfort TV for me. Seeing Dr Rey on my screen gives me the feeling like "I am going home". Hes just so charmingly childish. I especially love last night that he annouced his wife's weight on TV (93lb waif-like lbs). I like watching the other Dr's as well. Its one of those shows that I dont channel surf when its on. I wish TWOP (one of my favorite TV snark boards) still have the DR 90210 discussion, but the moderators deleted it because the discussion no longer was about the show, but moreso about Rey's wife, amounst other side issues.
I also watched the Bachelor. Not because I think the guy will find true love, but rather to check out the acting skills of all these "mactresses". (model/actress). That girl Erika who is "a socialite" would do well on a soap opera. How transparent were her tears.
Getting back to real reality... I met with Alyssa's teacher. For the 1st quarter she has all "A"s so she can get a replacement mp3 player from the one she lost. Afterwards I took her to her skating lesson. She did really well. She has taken basic 4 two times already. She almost passed this time, but has trouble with "right leg 3 turn". She does backward skills better than forward skills, which is interesting. She is getting the same "no nosense" instructor next time and he is going to also work on Basic 5 skills if he gets the same girls. Unfortunately, Alyssa friend Taylor broke her arm/wrist on the playground on Sat, when she fell off the monkey bars. So Alyssa is alone again in skating. This is probably good for her, but I want skating to be FUN.When it is no FUN she wants to quit.
I meet with Jack's teacher on Friday. I know what to expect. Academically he is fine. But his behavor has something to be desired. He is a boy afterall. This is kindergarden afterall as well.
I freaked out too much when Alyssa was in kindy. I am trying not to do the same with Jack.
I am going to try to get some pics up this week on this blog. Felix probably took a zillion pics of the kids at the pumpkin patch yesterday. I am so mad I forgot my camera when we went to the corn maze on Sat.
I also watched the Bachelor. Not because I think the guy will find true love, but rather to check out the acting skills of all these "mactresses". (model/actress). That girl Erika who is "a socialite" would do well on a soap opera. How transparent were her tears.
Getting back to real reality... I met with Alyssa's teacher. For the 1st quarter she has all "A"s so she can get a replacement mp3 player from the one she lost. Afterwards I took her to her skating lesson. She did really well. She has taken basic 4 two times already. She almost passed this time, but has trouble with "right leg 3 turn". She does backward skills better than forward skills, which is interesting. She is getting the same "no nosense" instructor next time and he is going to also work on Basic 5 skills if he gets the same girls. Unfortunately, Alyssa friend Taylor broke her arm/wrist on the playground on Sat, when she fell off the monkey bars. So Alyssa is alone again in skating. This is probably good for her, but I want skating to be FUN.When it is no FUN she wants to quit.
I meet with Jack's teacher on Friday. I know what to expect. Academically he is fine. But his behavor has something to be desired. He is a boy afterall. This is kindergarden afterall as well.
I freaked out too much when Alyssa was in kindy. I am trying not to do the same with Jack.
I am going to try to get some pics up this week on this blog. Felix probably took a zillion pics of the kids at the pumpkin patch yesterday. I am so mad I forgot my camera when we went to the corn maze on Sat.
Monday, October 09, 2006
Things come in threes....
Well a week ago Friday alyssa was in this place called "sportorama" and while running around she ran into a another kid and ended up with a bloody nose. Of course, that was the day I decided to where white! Anyway, then last Tuesday she had some type of stomach thing and vomited 2 times that day. Well I was always told that things come in threes. So yesterday she accidentally got hit in the back of the head with a rock at Felix's co's picnic. Boys were skipping rocks at the river and one totally missed. Alyssa ended up with 3 stitches! So I hope that her string of bad luck is now over.
Some things that came of yesterday's incident
Jack was sometimes playing with rocks at recess. I think he now understands why not to do that
While they were stitching up Alyssa, Jack, mr motormouth, was cracking everyone up asking if they were going to examine Alyssa's brain. I dont think he realized it, but he was being helping by distracting Alyssa.
Alyssa was very good and brave at the immediate care center. They gave her a koala bear when she was done. We talked about gathering her stuffed animals that she no longer uses and donating them.
I REALLY need that GPS system. We were in a part of town that I dont know very well. WE made a few wrong turns getting to where we needed to go. Dont know if I can wait the 46 more days until my favorite holiday --- Black Friday!
Today Felix is taking the kids to the pumpkin patch. I have teacher conferences after school. I pretty much know what to expect.
Some things that came of yesterday's incident
Jack was sometimes playing with rocks at recess. I think he now understands why not to do that
While they were stitching up Alyssa, Jack, mr motormouth, was cracking everyone up asking if they were going to examine Alyssa's brain. I dont think he realized it, but he was being helping by distracting Alyssa.
Alyssa was very good and brave at the immediate care center. They gave her a koala bear when she was done. We talked about gathering her stuffed animals that she no longer uses and donating them.
I REALLY need that GPS system. We were in a part of town that I dont know very well. WE made a few wrong turns getting to where we needed to go. Dont know if I can wait the 46 more days until my favorite holiday --- Black Friday!
Today Felix is taking the kids to the pumpkin patch. I have teacher conferences after school. I pretty much know what to expect.
Sunday, October 08, 2006
gratefulness...
Why is it, that you can do all these nice things for your kids and then the one time you say "no" they forget all the great things you did.
I took Alyssa, her best friend, and Jack to the dairy farm yesterday. Since Alyssa's best friend has moved, she doesnt see her very often. This makes her sad, but then again, when they do see each other they get along so much better than when they saw each other every day. Isnt that true with most relationships? Anyway, I digress. The girls did an art project while Jack was at soccer. He scored 3 goals. I am so proud of him. He has improved so much from last year.
We went to crowded dairy farm and did the corn maize. I even let the 2 girls "go ahead" of us. The problem with the corn maze is that by the time its Oct , the correct path is all dirt, versus, grass, so you know which way to go. Makes it less fun.
After the maze , they had a big blow up jumper in some sand. The kids played there for about 45 minutes. We got some snacks and headed to the local park. While there we ran into a mom and her 2 daughters that Alyssa is friends with. The park was PACKED. Alyssa's friend's mom met there to get her daughter. I met her in the parking lot, and asked the other mom to watch out the girls. Well she watched them walk away to a picnic pavillan where they had flowers (some company picnic). I was not happy that she did stop them. I would have and at least asked where they were going. So much for trusting someone else for a few seconds. This same mom is not very dilligent about seat belts either. I will not allow Alyssa in a car with her at this point.
The next step was the mall. Wow what great sales. JcPEnny's had addl 50% off, and so did the childrens place. The childrens place had tons of really cute stuff. I got Alyssa some shoes and skirts. She really doesnt need it. THat child has too many clothes already, but I could not help it.
Fed the kids dinner. Then Alyssa wanted to go to Club Libby Lu. For those of you with girls, you probably have heard of the place. Its on the other side. She also wanted to go to Claires. Just to look; not to buy. Felix had me get him dinner and I was not about to carry it around the mall while Alyssa "browsed". So of course, she expressed how unhappy she was. I was like, what about all the other stuff you did get to do today? You could give these kids a day in Disney and then if dessert is not right , they would think they day was ruined. This is trait that most kids have though. I can remember being that way and being told "the more we do for you , the less grateful you are" as a kid.
Today is Felix's company picnic. It is very kid friendly . should be fun. right now Jack is playing in his room and Alyssa is at Sunday school. At home, Jack is just so easy... But at school and out, hes a different child. I wish I could have the Jack at home, mixed with the Alyssa at school. Ah but that is what makes our kids unique.
Here are some links for places discussed.
http://www.clublibbylu.com/store.aspx
and the park.
http://www.uswnet.com/playground/index.html
and the diary farm.
http://www.caglesdairy.com/MAiZE.htm
I took Alyssa, her best friend, and Jack to the dairy farm yesterday. Since Alyssa's best friend has moved, she doesnt see her very often. This makes her sad, but then again, when they do see each other they get along so much better than when they saw each other every day. Isnt that true with most relationships? Anyway, I digress. The girls did an art project while Jack was at soccer. He scored 3 goals. I am so proud of him. He has improved so much from last year.
We went to crowded dairy farm and did the corn maize. I even let the 2 girls "go ahead" of us. The problem with the corn maze is that by the time its Oct , the correct path is all dirt, versus, grass, so you know which way to go. Makes it less fun.
After the maze , they had a big blow up jumper in some sand. The kids played there for about 45 minutes. We got some snacks and headed to the local park. While there we ran into a mom and her 2 daughters that Alyssa is friends with. The park was PACKED. Alyssa's friend's mom met there to get her daughter. I met her in the parking lot, and asked the other mom to watch out the girls. Well she watched them walk away to a picnic pavillan where they had flowers (some company picnic). I was not happy that she did stop them. I would have and at least asked where they were going. So much for trusting someone else for a few seconds. This same mom is not very dilligent about seat belts either. I will not allow Alyssa in a car with her at this point.
The next step was the mall. Wow what great sales. JcPEnny's had addl 50% off, and so did the childrens place. The childrens place had tons of really cute stuff. I got Alyssa some shoes and skirts. She really doesnt need it. THat child has too many clothes already, but I could not help it.
Fed the kids dinner. Then Alyssa wanted to go to Club Libby Lu. For those of you with girls, you probably have heard of the place. Its on the other side. She also wanted to go to Claires. Just to look; not to buy. Felix had me get him dinner and I was not about to carry it around the mall while Alyssa "browsed". So of course, she expressed how unhappy she was. I was like, what about all the other stuff you did get to do today? You could give these kids a day in Disney and then if dessert is not right , they would think they day was ruined. This is trait that most kids have though. I can remember being that way and being told "the more we do for you , the less grateful you are" as a kid.
Today is Felix's company picnic. It is very kid friendly . should be fun. right now Jack is playing in his room and Alyssa is at Sunday school. At home, Jack is just so easy... But at school and out, hes a different child. I wish I could have the Jack at home, mixed with the Alyssa at school. Ah but that is what makes our kids unique.
Here are some links for places discussed.
http://www.clublibbylu.com/store.aspx
and the park.
http://www.uswnet.com/playground/index.html
and the diary farm.
http://www.caglesdairy.com/MAiZE.htm
Saturday, October 07, 2006
everyone else does it, why not me?
I figure that everyone else blogs. Also I find myself wanting to blog in other people's blog. So why not do it myself. The scary thing is that there is a fine line here. I want to share my thoughts, yet I dont want to offend, embaress, etc. (also note that my grammer and spelling are not the best, my 2nd grader has better grammer).
